Before I die I want to

Actually I have never give a deep thought about this.

Some people say that you only know what you truly want the moment before you die. And I think this is one of the truest phrases I have ever heard.

Tonight, I surfed the TED website and watched a video. To me, to help people to improve their lives is one of the best things to do. I may not make big money, but many months ago I made a wish that I could make monthly donation to Ryan's Well Foundation.

Sitting in front of the laptop, I think in my mind that I should make a list of 50 or 100 things I Wish to Do Before I Die. Looking at the black space as above, I am not sure what should I fill in. If you are interested, you can visit their website www.beforeidie.cc.

So what you gonna fill in the blank? I am not sure myself, how about you?

2 in 1: 择偶的条件 & 勤阅读的原因

其实，这个topic跟朋友随性地聊过几次。

四五年前，朋友问：“ 看女孩会先注意哪个部位？”

我诚实地答：“ 腿。”

内在的话，当然要比我话多但拒绝吱喳。

刚刚也跟朋友谈起副业，发觉做 midnight 电台 DJ 好像也不错。这当然是个小小的梦想。

自从在两年前收到朋友的一本《 绿色的马》 中短篇小说，我已经读了四本书：

《 绿色的马》
"Seriously...I'm kidding"
《 那些年，我们一起追的女孩》
"The Hunger Games"

现在正读着"The Boy Who Harnessed The Wind"。勤阅读的原因有三个：

1）培养专注力concentration
2）提高自己的内涵 connotation
3）扩大词汇库 vocabulary

原谅的代价

一句 “对不起”。有意义吗?

对我而言，一句”对不起” 根本改变不了什么。

所以，我能做的

就是不要做对不起别人的事。

想一想，

伤害已经成为事实

任谁也改变不了

所以，我能做的

就是讲话要经过大脑，

任何决定要深思远虑。

小学的时候，

曾经把一杯冰水倒在一位学生的身上

第一个反应当然是说对不起

买冰水的阿姨赶快跑过来

用一块布擦干他的身体

一边说“说对不起有鬼用啊？”

回想起来

阿姨的话说的一点也没错

但那个时候还小的我

只能说句对不起

现在，已经长大的我

可以做的

就是不要做对不起别人的事情 

因为一旦踏入社会

一句“对不起”

的代价是你承担不起的

也发挥不了作用。 

自己原谅别人容易

要别人原谅你是很难的。

Back to Uni!

Hey guys, I just came back to Hamilton yesterday at 5 pm after 26 hours of flight. It was very tiring!!! Right after arriving at my house, I rushed to the 7 pm night class. I am such a good student. Ahaha

Yup, I still haven't unpacked my stuff so my room is in mess right now.  I want to talk a bit about the flight. The flight attendants which were obviously Korean treat me like a Korean. Ahaha, it was so funny when they speak to me in Korean language and I gave them "I-don't-know-what-are-you-talking-about" face expression. 

I had a transit from Chicago to Toronto at Chicago International Airport. Wow, I can feel the aura emitting from Americans is totally different from Canadians! And I saw a gay couple here in Chicago! OK, it is very normal. I will see more in the near future. LOL

Alright, I must get back to work (sleep). Bye! 

小说

这几天，正读着一本长篇小说--九把刀的《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》。

“虾米？你都会读小说？”

从小学开始，除了课本和参考书，我很少读课外书。打多是翻阅几页惊悚小说，国家地理杂志或八卦杂志。漫画书曾经在中四和中五的时候出现过，但很快地消失了。原因很简单--没有耐心把他们看完。书，在我的心里或从它的角度看，是做不了亲密朋友的。

去年，朋友送了一本短篇小说，是九把刀的《绿色的马》。朋友送的书，当然要看完才行。当时的我是这样想的。所以，我花了一段时间，也忘了多久才把九篇故事看完。虽不至于伤到元气，但习惯性的不耐烦毛病还是让我匆匆地把书看完。

[刚刚把那书翻了一下，发现原来他叮曙的那份礼物，我老早就忘记了。怎么办？]

这一次，我自动自发地去大众书局，单纯只是要看一些书打发时间。《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》根本不在买书单内。我买东西有一个习惯，就是物色了自己喜欢的东西后，在5秒内就会看看标签上的价格，才决定买或不买。有时还会犹豫很久。

细心和充满期待地读了两三页后，觉得蛮不错的。这本小说的电影好像已经拍完了，但我清楚知道自己是不会去电影院看这种电影的。如果要知道九把刀写了些什么，买这本小说是唯一的途径。

[RM22.00,好像贵了一点。] 我心里想。

在书局里呆了大约一个小时，我一直在想到底卖或不买这个问题。一边在想，一边翻阅其他书籍和杂志。一度想要走出书局，却还是停下了脚步。

最后在心里下定决心--离开书局前一定要把它买下。最后，当然也买了那本小说。快乐的结局。柜台的男生在我把书送到他手上后，问我是否要申请一张大众书局卡，有20%折扣。

[不用钱的啊？] 我问。

没有听清楚他的回答，但知道 要付年费。

[不用了。] 我答。真现实。

买了这本书，中四五当图书馆理员时买的书签终于可以派上场了。哼哼。

花了三天，已经把书看了一半。没有不耐烦，但有时会想知道这chapter还剩多少页。有时也有冲动要知道下一个chapter的故事。

九把刀让我买了人生中第一本长篇小说（被逼买的课本除外），果然不是浪得虚名。

看完这本书后，可能还会买他其他的作品。应该是《猎命师传奇》或《楼下的房客》。要看书的精彩和价钱咯。哈哈。

Sleeping Problems

I have had enough of this sleeping problem. 

Since I came back home, insomnia has happened quite frequently. 

Everytime I try to sleep early but I would wake up in the midnight and stay awake till the sunrise. When my body finally give up, then I can go to rest. 

Most of the time, I sleep less than 6 hours a day and I usually don't take nap. 

I was once thinking of taking sleeping pills but my mom said it could become an addict.

Although I am still in full health, I do think this sleeping problems will eventually affect my health in some way.

In Canada, I had little problem with sleeping. May be I was too tired of doing assignments, studying for tests and rush for classes. 

I wish I could have nature wake up everyday, just like yesterday.

If I Die Young

"If I die young, bury me in the satin. Lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river, at dawn. Send me away with words of a love song."

I never think about this. 

People say 2012 is the end of the world. I never believe that.

There are a lot of things that I haven't done. I want to put on my square cap, date a girl, shed a tear seeing the birth of my first baby, have a bike trip etc.

 If you ask me what if I die young, I don't have an answer for now.

What if you die young?